2.49am
Another sleepless night. I found out something strange, I realized I blog only when i cant sleep. haha. I was lying on bed just now, tears keep falling down as memories flash back on my mind. The memories with my dears one. 5 years back, there is a best friend of mine, leaving for Australia. She is my classmate and my ever best friend, that we spent almost everyday schooling, chatting, shopping, having fun. Remembered her flight was 9am in the morning, I was unable to send her off to the airport because it is a schooling day. As i reached school, I walked round the school. Every corridors, benches, all corners filled with our foot-prints, shadows, and laughter. I know for sure, she will come back. Unfortunately, we cant create the same memory again when we back to the same place.I cried as I walk round the school, I saw a plane flied across the sky, I prayed in my heart, for her to have a safe journey and a better life there, away from Malaysia.
Now, I have to suffer again to stay apart with someone meaningful to me. He will be leaving couple months later to further his study in UK. This is no doubt causing me nightmares or insomnia. I can hardly take it when I realize that I might be spending my birthdays, valentine's days, Christmas, more n more occasion alone for 3 years. I cant help stopping my tears to fall. Imagine I have to wait a year to see u once, I graduate without u attending my convocation, I cry without u wipe away my tears, I wish to go for a movie, a trip, but u are not here with me, I need transport when I off working late, I wanna drink, I wanna have cheese cake, I wanna hug u, I wanna kiss u, but u are not around and I have to sleep without your hug. All these is killing me!!
I wish U never have to go~
I wish I could be selfish enough to ask u stay~
I wish I could......
I can only wish you all the best.
Take care when I am not around you~
and don forget, I Love U.
from your potapig~
-swee-
