~eVerYtHing to sHaRe~

Could you stay?

2010-04-11T11:47:00.000-07:00

2.49am

Another sleepless night. I found out something strange, I realized I blog only when i cant sleep. haha. I was lying on bed just now, tears keep falling down as memories flash back on my mind. The memories with my dears one. 5 years back, there is a best friend of mine, leaving for Australia. She is my classmate and my ever best friend, that we spent almost everyday schooling, chatting, shopping, having fun. Remembered her flight was 9am in the morning, I was unable to send her off to the airport because it is a schooling day. As i reached school, I walked round the school. Every corridors, benches, all corners filled with our foot-prints, shadows, and laughter. I know for sure, she will come back. Unfortunately, we cant create the same memory again when we back to the same place.I cried as I walk round the school, I saw a plane flied across the sky, I prayed in my heart, for her to have a safe journey and a better life there, away from Malaysia.

Now, I have to suffer again to stay apart with someone meaningful to me. He will be leaving couple months later to further his study in UK. This is no doubt causing me nightmares or insomnia. I can hardly take it when I realize that I might be spending my birthdays, valentine's days, Christmas, more n more occasion alone for 3 years. I cant help stopping my tears to fall. Imagine I have to wait a year to see u once, I graduate without u attending my convocation, I cry without u wipe away my tears, I wish to go for a movie, a trip, but u are not here with me, I need transport when I off working late, I wanna drink, I wanna have cheese cake, I wanna hug u, I wanna kiss u, but u are not around and I have to sleep without your hug. All these is killing me!!
I wish U never have to go~
I wish I could be selfish enough to ask u stay~
I wish I could......

I can only wish you all the best.
Take care when I am not around you~
and don forget, I Love U.
from your potapig~

-swee-

Emo * Insomnia = tonight

2009-09-12T13:19:00.001-07:00

This is another night........
i had loneliness and emo surrounding me.
not to forget insomnia is the one that allow me to stay till 4.30am...
haha....the song i m listening to now is 可惜你不在～　
what a suitable song for this moment.... today is a bday of someone special..
i had celebrate 3 years bday with him...is time to let others take up the chance..
wish him happy birthday~ now n alws.....

lets me end this post with a meaningful song....
a meaningful one....

歌曲:曾经爱你永远爱你歌手:伍思凯等时间过去等现在的一切变成回忆在某个夜里我将站在海边大声喊你曾有的悲喜将会温暖也会刺痛我的心我知道我一定会后悔失去你就快看不到你的背影分手就要成定局我快要不能呼吸能够相爱并不容易无法想像没有你那些撒满阳光日子里那些眼泪和笑语你真的已不在意 MY LOVE 轻轻的喊着你曾经爱你永远爱你等时间过去等现在的一切变成回忆在某个夜里我将站在海边大声喊你曾有的悲喜将会温暖也会刺痛我的心我知道我一定会后悔失去你就快看不到你的背影分手就要成定局我快要不能呼吸能够相爱并不容易无法想像没有你那些撒满阳光日子里那些眼泪和笑语你真的已不在意 MY LOVE 轻轻的喊着你曾经爱你永远爱你你已含着泪水转身而去我还抱着盼望停留在原地一段并不长的距离爱却跨不过去天空无语海无情就快看不到你的背影分手就要成定局我快要不能呼吸能够相爱并不容易无法想像我没有你那些撒满阳光日子里那些眼泪和笑语你真的已不在意 MY LOVE 轻轻的喊着你曾经爱你永远爱你（对着你的背影轻声说我爱你）

Another night.................

2009-08-13T10:14:00.001-07:00

This is just a normal, cold, silent, lonely night...
another emo night........
again, I m sitting in front of my pc.. duno what to do..
feel so speechless.. feel like life is meaningless..
i duno what i do each day.. things i need to do, i wanted to do, i never complete it.
i need to go school but i play truant;
i need to study but i cant stop youtube, facebook...
ntg i really bother n care~

life is short. people are suffering from illness, pain etc etc.....
yet i m wasting my time, wasting my life...
duno how long it takes for me to get out of all these..
anyone can help me out???

no one...........

爱一人

2009-07-04T04:54:00.000-07:00

Its been sometimes that I dint update my blog..
Just now saw a special article, feel like sharing v ppl that read my blog....
But it is in chinese.... Hope u all can understand..
It is too meaningful~

如果你不爱一个人,

请放手.

好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,

请放开自己,

好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .

但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,

有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.

女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,

我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害,

我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,

我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，

你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，

你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，

你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，

你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

how u find about the post? =D

hope u do get some lesson from here~
love is something to be learn for a life time.....

~ mY rOOm ~

2009-06-22T06:36:00.000-07:00

I m so glad to have my own room..a big n comfortable room with my own toilet...hehe. My lovely bed, new pc, my decoration which is my pictures.... love all that i have.. but a disadvantage is the room is hot.. eventhough with two fans.. XC if the room is with air - condition, sure i won leave my room d!! i rather stay there 20hours... hehe... but better not make it too comfortable. if not i will keep playing traunt again.. lolz

memories of my life if all around in my room. hahahaha

my bed.. with lovely moo moo..

tables with pc... erm, is too messy there..

work in progress.. pai se..

lolz... how u define PRINCESS?

this is how i do~

this is my house toilet.. love the mirror so much.

cause it is in pink colour.

specially pick by mummy for me. hehe

Life in Kampar~

2009-06-22T06:20:00.000-07:00

I have been in Kampar for more than 3 weeks time.. Life is peaceful... my daily activities are sleeping, eating, schooling, facebook-ing, msn-ing... lolz... more is going to pasar malam, Tesco, jogging/walking and going back to home town.. i believe 99% of the students here have the same living style like I do~ lolz....

Time to let pictures speak.. =D

The silly guys in my class.... lolz

this is nice~ is 7 something in the evening.

Can u belive that TESCO is a NIGHT MARKET???

lolz.. Kampar is not bad ok?? lolz

zheng n goh.. grabbing junk food..

tues KFC offer... 5.50pm we rush over to place the last few orders..

KC, hou sik mou?? hahaha

this is the most popular vehicle of all in Kampar~

*picture taken in Utar*
i wonder how the students actually able to recogzine thier bike..

=saTurdAy nigHt=

2009-05-07T23:09:00.000-07:00

= Kee + Swee + Xin =

= Sharon + Swee + Catherin =

what a mess... lolz

Sandwich.....

BFF~

LoveLy~ hehe

A special night for me n my girls in poppy last sat... cause it was my farewell...
My dear Catherin, darling Sharon n my beloved sis, Kee, with her sweetheart is having fun that night....(sorry that i would like to ignore the guys).. haha..... not much of drinking, more of dancing, hugging and kissing... hahaha... madness Sharon n Catherin ACT like they are drunk. hahaha... cat is lying that it was her last time to club n worst is those guys believe in him!!! God~~~ from the way she shake can tell that she is cheating obviously!!! -A lesson for u guys, never trust anyone when u club. hahahaha......